Rap
star Darryl ‘DMC’ McDaniels tells a fascinating and touching
story about singer/songwriter Sarah McLachlan saving him from suicide.
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Darryl
"DMC" McDaniels Tells His Story
On
the Moth's Tour in Cleveland for the Show “When World's Collide”
This is his story:
"I've been on this earth for
35 years and 10 years ago I'm sittin' there and I'm like 'Yo, am I here just
to be DMC?' First to go Gold, first to go Platinum, did all of this. Grew up
in Hollis, Queens, I went to the best Catholic schools all my life, Catholic
elementary, Catholic high school, I went to St. Johns University. Okay, it
was Christmas for me everyday growing up as a kid. I was spoiled. Best life a
kid could have. Now I become DMC with Joey, who was just Joey, but now we're
Run DMC and we go on to spearhead the whole hip-hop movement and we go on to
fortune and fame. So I'm sittin' over in Europe 10 years ago and sayin'
'Somethin' ain't right here. Somethin' is missin'. But I couldn't put my
finger on it. So I said to myself--not that I wasn't happy with the way
things were goin' and I wasn't grateful for all of my accomplishments, but I
said 'Okay, I'm gonna commit suicide.' Why? Probably because I was unhappy
with 'if this is all I'm gonna get out of this life, I can't stay here. I'm
ready to move on to my next plane of existence. There's gotta be more to
this. People were like 'D, you're crazy! You're f-----' DMC. You've got a
wife, kids, life is beautiful.' I said, 'All of that is lovely, but there's
something else that is missing.'"This was in '97 and I said 'When I get
home from Europe…' I was in Europe and Run DMC, without havin' a hit record
or video, we're over in Europe getting' a hundred grand a night. Life can't
be better than that s---. I don't give a f--- if somebody knows nuthin' about
my music, we're the f-----' Rolling Stones, we're the f-----' Beatles of
hip-hop. A lotta rappers, after they sell their 21 million two years from now
you ain't gonna care about these muthaf-----. It don't get no better than
that. Me, Run, and Jay, we were able to tour until we were 85. People would
still comes see us doin' "It's Like That" [as old men]. But I said
'When I get home, I'm gonna commit suicide.' So I get home and I get in the
car that picks me up [at the airport], I turned the radio on. Sarah
McLachlan's "Angel" was on the radio. That record saved
my life. Wife. Kids. Fortune. Fame. I didn't give a f--- about none of
that. I turned the radio on--and I'm tryin' to express to you how it's so
funny. I turned it on and I heard Sarah McLachlan's record and something that
day said 'Life is good. It's good to be alive.' "So I go and I buy that
record and everything Sarah McLachlan ever made. I listen Sarah
McLachlan for one whole year. At the end of the year the Grammy's come around
and my manager says 'D, let's go to the Grammy party. We're gonna go to Clive
Davis' party.' I didn't want to go. I didn't care about s---. All I cared
about was Sarah McLachlan records. So we go to the Grammy party, I get there
and who do I see sittin' across the room--'cuz she was on Arista Records
under Clive Davis--it's Sarah McLachlan. She was 'that lady.' I go 'Oh
my god, it's that lady!' So I'm gettin' all nervous, but then I go 'No, I
gotta go over there and tell Sarah McLachlan what her record did for me.'
So I pushed through the red carpet
and the paparazzi, I get over to Sarah McLachlan, she looks up and she sees
DMC standin' there in his full Run DMC regalia, hat, dressed in black, Adidas
on. She says 'Run DMC, I love you guys. I love what you guys represent. Your
music is so cool. I'm a big fan.' I'm like 'Wow!' Then I go, 'Ms. McLachlan,
thank you for tellin' me that but I was suicidal, I didn't know what life was
about, I had a lot to live for, but I was upset and was gonna kill myself. I
don't know if I would've really done it, but just having suicidal thoughts.
Then I heard your record "Angel." Now the record's name is
"Angel," you sound like an angel, people say you're an angel, but
you're not an angel to me, you're a god.' And I'm goin' on and on and on and
she's lookin' at me like 'Oh-kaaaaay. So I finish and she looks at me
and she says this to me: 'Thank you for telling me that Darryl, 'cause that's
what music is supposed to do.' She shakes my hand and she walks away.
Sarah
McLachlan
"Three years go by. In
those three years I'm still tryin' to figure out 'Okay, how does a b-boy grow
into a b-man? If I'mma still gonna be in hip-hop, what do I rap about? I
ain't tryin' to out rhyme Jay-Z and I ain't tryin' to be meaner than all
these new rappers, and I ain't tryin' to dance around in the videos with P.
Diddy. Where do I fit in? Should I give it up?' I had just heard on the
radio, I heard prominent rappers who were out at the time go 'I don't know if
I'm gonna be doin' hip-hop when I'm 40, you know? Hip-hop is a young is a
young music.' So I'm sittin' there hurt by these statements. I was like 'What
do you mean you're not gonna do hip-hop? I mean does Bruce Springsteen stop
playin' guitar 'cuz he's 50? Will the Rolling Stones ever stop touring? Does
Eric Clapton and Dylan stop writing? That's crazy.' I was 12-years old before
I even thought about makin' a record, sittin' in my room sincerely and innocently
writin' rhymes. That's what we do. So I'm tryin' to figure all that out. But
then three years go by and I find out that I was adopted. Then I go back and
say 'That's what was missing three years ago when I was sittin' there sayin'
'This ain't satisfyin', there's gotta be more to life than this.'' 'Cuz I had
thought that I done did it all. I'm DMC, it's don't get no better than that,
but there was a void in me. But Sarah McLachlan's record "Angel"
kept me alive so I could live another three years and find out that I was
adopted. That was the missing piece to my existence. 'Cuz you knew everything
about me: first to go Gold. First to go Platinum. First on MTV. First on Rolling
Stone. This, this, and this from Hollis. Everything I did. But something
was missing in my existence, so I found that out.'I was gonna get all
depressed like 'Damn, why did my mother give me away? Abandonment. Why didn't
she want me? Am I not good enough? No, that can't be true, 'cuz look at me.'
So I said 'Okay, now I have a bigger responsibility than being DMC. My story
isn't just about bein' this hip-hop guy DMC. My story is the story of purpose
and destiny 'cuz if my mother never thought well enough to give me a
better chance and gave me up, I would have never been adopted, I would've
have moved to Hollis, I would've never met Run and Jay, none of this rap s---
would've happened the way it did, when it did. That was destiny. So I said
'That's what I'm still here for!' In the midst of all of this Jay gets
murdered! Bow! I'm really sayin' 'What does Darryl do? Forget what Run and
DMC and Jay did. Jay's gone. Run's a minister and he's sellin' f-----' Phat
Farm clothes with his brother Russell. What is Darryl's purpose now?'"So
I said, 'Okay, here's what I'mma do. I'm gonna write a record that's gonna
help that little kid in the foster home or that little adopted kid or the
grown up adopted man. Adoption is just my situation. Whatever situation
you're in on this earth, you have a reason. Me, I'm this little adopted kid
that grew up in a middle class neighborhood, went to the best schools all my
life, Catholic schools all my life, St. Johns University, became king of this
whole rap shit. That f-----' was destiny for me, but that's just a small
picture of what I represent. So I'mma do this record
Then I thought 'That Harry Chapin
record was such a heartfelt record. That record is generational. When all of
us are dead and gone, that Harry Chapin record'll be here because it was a song,
it was some real s---. It wasn't no fake s---. So I'mma do a remake of the
Harry Chapin record and his record was so heartbreakin' about the
father and son, I'mma give mine a happy ending and I'mma talk about me bein'
adopted and how all this came to be, how DMC became…' Then a light goes on in
my head. 'I'mma get that lady. That lady whose record three years
earlier helped me, I'mma get her to help me make a record that's gonna help
somebody else.' Right?
"I tell my manager to get
Sarah McLachlan's manager on the phone, tell her DMC wants to make a record
with her. Everybody in the industry was like 'That s--- will never happen.
DMC and Sarah McLachlan? What the f--- are you gonna do?' And it's
gonna be a Harry Chapin remix! So I get her on the phone. 'Hey Ms. McLachlan,
remember me?' 'Hey Darryl, how could I forget you. What do you want?' I'm
like 'Okay, here we go. She's definitely gonna get an order of protection
against my a-- 'cuz she's gonna think I'm crazy.' But I say, 'Ms McLachlan,
remember when I met you three years earlier and I told you what your record
did for me?' She says, 'Yes I do.' I said 'Well, I just found out I was
adopted, blahzay-blah this, boom-bang, I was gonna go through these motions,
but then I said 'Naw, I'mma make a record 'cuz y'all record helped me.' So
I'mma make a record to help somebody else. So I was wonderin' if you'd do
this record with me. It's gonna be Harry Chapin's "Cat In The
Cradle." Will you do it with me?' She says, 'Yes, I'll do it with you.'
I go 'Wow, that was easy.' Then I said 'Alright, I'll bring you to New York,
you come in the studio, I'll put you in a hotel…' She says 'No Darryl. You
can come to my house to make the record.' So I'm a fan now, I'm losin' it.
I'm like goin' crazy to my manager 'Oh s---! She said 'Yes'!'"So I flew
out to Sarah McLachlan's house. We get to her house and it wasn't like I took
a CD and said 'Come spit your verses.' She brings her band in and we create
the record from scratch. This is some real musical s---. I mean I idolize
musicians and artists like Dylan and all the great ones. So we finish the
record, she looks over at me and says 'Darryl, I gotta tell you something.' I
go 'What?' She says 'I was adopted, too.' Her record saved my life. I meet
her. She looks at me and says 'Darryl, that's what music is supposed to do.
Thank you.' She walks away and I ain't never think I'm gonna see her again. I
find out I was adopted and said 'Oh lemme go back to that lady who saved me
to help me save some other people.' We through all of that, but then at the
end the reason why I resonated with her record and all of this came to pass
is because we had something in common. But it took her music to keep me alive
and bring us together to prove that. "So when she said 'That's what
music is supposed to do,' I said 'I'm not gonna make records that are gonna
rhyme about my Adidas again. I ain't gotta talk about my Adidas, 'cuz
everybody knows that. I ain't gotta go tell people I'm the King of Rock.
Everybody knows that. I ain't gotta tell people I'm from Hollis, I ain't
gotta tell people where I'm comin' from. Everybody knows my history. The
reason why I'm here now--I'm older now, I'm fortunate enough to still be
here. I idolize Dylan! I idolize Lennon! I idolize
Springsteen! I idolize Springsteen! I idolize Hendrix! I idolize
Sly Stone! All the great ones, Fogerty. There's a war goin' on? Lemme make a
record about that. There's an issue with the educational system? Lemme make a
record about that. I'mma make a record about me bein' an alcoholic and how I
went to rehab. Oh, I just found out I was adopted, I'll make a record about
that. Oh I'll just make a record about wakin' up and walkin' to 7-11.
Because, for me now, my purpose in this music as a musician, as an artist,
and a writer, is much bigger than still bein' that DMC guy. I can be DMC for
the rest of my life, but I'll do a disservice to me and to my fans if
I don't grow. So that's what my whole new album is about. I'm f-----' DMC,
I'm 41-years old and the s--- that I'm rhymin' about is the s--- that I do.
And on the other hand, I'm not rhymin' to impress people. I think about even
though Run, DMC, and Jay were the baddest muthaf----- to ever pick up a mic
and a turntable, we always talked about good, normal stuff that people could
relate to. I'm part of the number one rap group in the world and one of my
lyrics was 'I'm DMC/in the place to be/I go to St. Johns University.' Our
whole point is that we made it gangsta to be positive."
*The
proceeding an abridged transcript of Darryl “DMC”
McDaniels story as told on The Moth Radio Hour (produced by The Moth, Jay
Allison and Atlantic Public Media. Presented and distributed by the Public
Radio Exchange).
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"What I really represent is purpose and destiny....." - Darryl ‘DMC’ McDaniels.
Wow! These kinds of things that I hear just blow me away. I couldn't be more different than this man but we feel so much the same. We are both sensitive and hurt for unknown reasons. We find beauty and redemption in the oddest places and are willing to do whatever it takes to mend that hurt so others don't also have to feel it .
I find this similarity in so many people I meet. From my Blackfoot Indian friend Jeff to my beautiful, petite, non-English speaking Russian friend at work, Ala and people everywhere in between, all over the planet.
I believe so many (most) of us, unique in our ways, have so much more in common than we have differences. It's love, I think.
I LOVE LOVING AND I LOVE STORIES ABOUT THE POWER OF LOVE, LIKE THIS ONE:
Angel
Sarah McLachlan -Angel
Sarah McLachlan - In the arms of an angel
DMC Darryl McDaniels and Sarah McLachlan - "Just Like Me" |
DMC Darryl McDaniels ft Sarah McLachlan - "Just Like Me"
Όπως γράφεται συχνά, σύμφωνα με την χριστιανική διδασκαλία τo καλλίτερο συμπερασματικό επιχείρημα, είναι καλύτερα να μας το πει η ίδια η Αγία Γραφή.
"Γιατί έχω πεισθεί πια απόλυτα, πως ούτε θάνατος, ούτε ζωή, ούτε άγγελοι, ούτε αρχές, ούτε εξουσίες, ούτε παρόντα, ούτε μέλλοντα, ούτε όσα βρίσκονται ψηλά, ούτε όσα βρίσκονται στα βάθη, κι ούτε κάποιο άλλο διαφορετικό δημιούργημα, θα μπορέσει να μας χωρίσει από την αγάπη του Θεού, που εκδηλώθηκε μέσω του Xριστού Iησού, του Kυρίου μας. (Επιστολή Απ. Παύλου προς Ρωμαίους 8:38-39).
Ο ίδιος Θεός που σε έσωσε, είναι ο ίδιος Θεός που θα σε φυλάξει.
Άπαξ σωσμένος, είσαι σωσμένος για πάντα."
Gli ho chiesto la forza
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήe Dio mi ha dato difficoltà per rendermi forte.
Gli ho chiesto la saggezza
e Dio mi ha dato problemi da risolvere.
Gli ho chiesto la prosperità
Gli ho chiesto il coraggio
e Dio mi ha dato pericoli da superare.
Gli ho chiesto l’Amore
e Dio mi ha affidato persone bisognose da aiutare.
Gli ho chiesto favori
e Dio mi ha dato opportunità.
Non ho ricevuto nulla di ciò che volevo
ma tutto quello di cui avevo bisogno.
La mia preghiera è stata ascoltata.
Antica poesia indiana
Josephine....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Esistono mondi inimmaginabili fatti di storie tramandate e canzoni erranti,epiche e colossali……esistono mondi paradossalmente contrastanti dove il vuoto pervade......
nei nostri cuori come tempesta di potenza inaudita e soffocante……
mondi distanti ma al tempo stesso vicini…..
sono specchi che riflettono le nostre sensazioni,i nostri umori,i nostri amori…….
gli angeli tengono in equilibrio questi Mondi……
tengono in vita la nostra anima...........
"There are worlds unimaginable events in stories and songs passed down errant, epic and colossal ...... there are paradoxically contrasting worlds where the vacuum pervades ......
Διαγραφήin our hearts as a storm of unprecedented power and stifling ......
worlds distant but at the same time neighbors .....
are mirrors that reflect our feelings, our moods, our loves .......
Angels are holding in balance these worlds ......
keep alive the soul ..........."
NADIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What I know for sure is that you are here in this time to awaken others with your writing, awakening them to the depth of their light. Not in a series of steps but in "miracle moments" where eyes are opened, the colors they view are exponentially brighter and life's that have been stuck are instantly transformed.
I am a very intuitive woman and there are times I am compelled to say something to someone that I do not plan. The words just flow out of my mouth like poetry and are not from me. The messages are always positive in nature and specific information for that person only. The above paragraph is one of those. You are here for great things, of this I have not doubt.
io sono una donna......che vive di cuore.......non ho altra via.....e l'inferno della mia vita Josephine......nel bene e nel male....amo questa vita.
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήGRAZIE.
Τα καλλίτερα, τα πιο όμορφα πράγματα στην ζωή,
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήδεν μπορείς να τα δεις ούτε να τα αγγίξεις.
Πρέπει να τα νιώσεις με την καρδιά σου.
- Έλεν Κέλερ
Η μεταστροφή του McDaniels είναι πράγματι ένα θαύμα.
Πολύ προσεγμένο άρθρο Josephine και μέσα στην καρδιά της επικαιρότητας...
"The shift of McDaniels is indeed a miracle."
ΔιαγραφήIt is isn't Foivos?
Seems so random but I believe he was being watched out for and a miracle happened!
That type of belief helps me to keep moving even when it can feel really difficult.
I love that quote by Helen Keller, so profound.
Thank you for your encouragement and support Foivos it means so much!!!
Είναι φορές που η καρδιά για να αντέξει την ομορφιά σπάζει από λαχτάρα. Από ανάγκη να πει ευχαριστώ. Από μια απλή διάθεση να μοιραστεί την ομορφιά που έζησε, το δώρο που έλαβε. Τότε νοιώθεις ευλογημένος.
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήΤο θαύμα ελάχιστα απέχει από την πραγματικότητα Josephine, κι εγώ θέλω να σου πω ένα μεγάλο ευχαριστώ.
Thank you Anastassia, I love your perspective;
Διαγραφή"There are times when the heart to endure the beauty breaks with longing".
There is so much precious humanity in this story and in many of all of our stories. For me it is in these places that we shine the brightest. How we choose to react and endure the human condition.